Is my blog obsolete?

Yesterday I had my second "Living Well with Diabetes" class at StayFit.  We talked about carb counting - I always learn something new.  The woman who was taking it with me gave me some fabulous bean recipes!  Can't wait to try them - they look yummy.  Hope she actually writes a book someday.

One of the good things that I got was the link to Michelle May, M.D.'s blog about diabetes and mindful eating.  Wonder if that means mine now is obsolete.  Only thing I know if my experience and my walk with Christ is unique - and that's all I know.

I've been experimenting with bedtime snacks to see if I can get my fasting blood sugar level down.  I've tried the Extend bars - and today my fasting number was 106 - that's the lowest it's been in a long time.  Guess time will tell how much is hormonal and how much might be affected by evening snacks.

Today is my therapist visit.

Ashley's Home!

Ashley got home from Kenya today!!!  We sure did miss her so it's nice to have her home.  Always seems there's choices involved - missed the debate party but got to catch up with her.  She had an awesome time, but there was some weirdness with the other students.  Joy and sorrow....life.

Change is in the air

Found out today that John's company has merged or been bought out (depending on who you listen to) and change is in the air.  What that means for security, insurance and other having a job is unknown at this point.  It's easy to praise God when things are stable, can I still say God is in control when things aren't.  That's always the question.


I was reading one of the Yada Yada Prayer Group books and one of the themes of this book is God rearranging my comfort zone - "imagine the possibilities..."  Good thing to hang onto.  Leaning INTO God and not into my own understanding.

Water sounds

I wanted to see if I could upload a picture - so what better than one of water!  This was taken up in Racine of Lake Michigan - right by the zoo. I was listening to my music with waves crashing in the background so guess this fit.

Saturday and not the fun week planned

Ashley is still in Kenya, haven't heard from her yet but one of the other college students actually texts her mom each day to fill her in. That's been helpful in terms of what to pray.

Sean has had the stomach flu since Tuesday - right after our breakfast out to celebrate our "fun week" with Ashley being gone. Sure didn't turn out that way. Sean hasn't gone more than 12 hours without puking since Tuesday - until today. I'm praying that we've turned a corner.

Yesterday I asked John to come home a little early from work so that I could still meet with Rosemary - I was going through withdrawl! I needed someone who could talk IE, carbs, diabetes and balance all in one conversation. I really do thank God for her almost daily - especially when I read what poor care others have had to endure when they saw their doctors for a diagnosis of diabetes. She also gave me another book to check out and a list of word that were really helpful to reflect on - the difference between healthy words and restrictive words in regards to eating. Shows the changes God is working in me - slow, slow, slow but there are definite changes. Thank you Lord!

Did go to see my therapist as well and we talked about doing a little more EMDR as there seems to still be stuff left with my fear of blood. Not looking forward to doing it, but would like to be rid of that too.

Found the very relaxing music at the therapist a good background noise at home so put it on my computer - and my ipod. Makes for nice prayer walks around the neighborhood.

Praying that next week might be more "fun" filled and less "illness" filled. Thanking God for our relatively good health!

Kenya

I dropped Ashley off at VCB so that the team could ride together to the airport and then depart for Kenya!! It didn't really hit me until driving home without her how far away she'll be. I know she's the safest if she's in the middle of God's will but still going to miss her. I thought about what I would have done before - come home and snacked my way through the cabinet missing her. Today I've checked diabetes boards, read, watched HGTV and will be walking later. Still miss her - but I'm learning to lean INTO God rather than food. Still a very slow process.

Bloodwork

Today I had an 8am appointment for my first fasting, A1C since my diagnosis with diabetes. It also gave me a chance to see if the EMDR had any effect. I started getting nervous on the way to the doctor - clammy hands and sick stomach. I also wondered - am I supposed to like it? Seems weird to me. The actual test was fine - I actually focused on the "waves" coming in and going out like I was at the beach and remember thinking, "why isn't she talking?" "It's awfully quiet" but just kept deep breathing. After she used something like an ace bandage to keep compression on the gauze so I wouldn't bruise - that actually was not super comfortable so I feel better now that I took it off. We'll see what the actual results are. My home fasting number was 124 this morning - even after I walked. We'll see what the lab says. I will say that after all this work the last 100 or so days, I'll be upset if my A1C doesn't go down. But then again, this is one weird rollercoaster of a ride disease!

One funny thing. I was listening to WMBI on the way to the doctor's and when I got there had a few minutes before I needed to go in. I flipped over to the music of K-Love and they were in the middle of the song "You are safe" by Phil Wickham. Same exact one that was on before I went for my CDE appointment and learned how to prick myself. God speaks thru song to me alot!